Me & my princess!
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Take 1000400034
Seems like I keep trying this blogging thing and keep getting sidetracked! So now that I can post from my phone I'm gonna give it another shot!
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Religion, God and all that stuff....
The last 2 days I've had the priviledge to assit the instructor from the karate school I attend with a class for his church's vacation bible school and it's brought up some mixed emotions for me. Relegion, no matter what yours is, God, again no matter which you believe in is such a complicated thing. It starts wars, it brings communites together and gives people comfort when they need it most, but it means so many different things to different people.
I grew up in a house were my parents didn't go to church and God was rarely talked about in our house. I went to church with different friend and family members so I have been educated in the ways of the bible and how God expects me to conduct my life. As an adult I've struggled many times with what to teach my own children about relgion.
I will admit after my mother passed I lost faith in any type of God. It amazed me how someone that should the bible and churches claim is so loving could take away my mother and my best friend when I needed her most. I still struggle with this concept and I feel that I always will.
I've been sitting the last 2 night and watching these young minds listen and absorb the teaching of the leaders at this VBS. The biggest thing I've noticed is how peaceful most of the adults seem. They truely believe exactly what they are teaching. I'm finding myself wondering where I stand. Yes, I believe there is a God, I believe that you should live your life in the best way that you can, I believe that the 10 commandments cover just about everything that is currently in need of fixing in our world. I pray sometimes, I've asked for guidence and looked to God for an explanation. In most ways that matter I consider myself a Christian.
But, yes there is always a but, I do have a lot of habits I guess you would call them that aren't very Christian like. I'm sure I offened people on a daily basis. I swear, I drink, I hold grudges and some times I even hate (yes, I know that's a strong word but it's the correct word). I have impure thoughts and I've been know to enchance a story or 2. And worst of all I don't go to church, and I'm not sure I ever will. Does this make me a bad person? (I often ask myself that.) Does it make be believe in my God anyless? I don't think so, I think it makes me...well me.
I try to tell myself I'll be a better person and in a lot of ways I am. I do community service, I help a friend whenever I can and I teach my children right from wrong and how to be true to themselves. Will I change what I do? I'm guessing after all most 38 years probably not. Most importantly I don't ever want to be anything but me. I'll worship and pray in MY way. I'll honor God and teach my children in MY way. If that makes me a "bad" Christian I guess when judgement day comes I'll have to answer to my God but for now I answer only to myself!
I grew up in a house were my parents didn't go to church and God was rarely talked about in our house. I went to church with different friend and family members so I have been educated in the ways of the bible and how God expects me to conduct my life. As an adult I've struggled many times with what to teach my own children about relgion.
I will admit after my mother passed I lost faith in any type of God. It amazed me how someone that should the bible and churches claim is so loving could take away my mother and my best friend when I needed her most. I still struggle with this concept and I feel that I always will.
I've been sitting the last 2 night and watching these young minds listen and absorb the teaching of the leaders at this VBS. The biggest thing I've noticed is how peaceful most of the adults seem. They truely believe exactly what they are teaching. I'm finding myself wondering where I stand. Yes, I believe there is a God, I believe that you should live your life in the best way that you can, I believe that the 10 commandments cover just about everything that is currently in need of fixing in our world. I pray sometimes, I've asked for guidence and looked to God for an explanation. In most ways that matter I consider myself a Christian.
But, yes there is always a but, I do have a lot of habits I guess you would call them that aren't very Christian like. I'm sure I offened people on a daily basis. I swear, I drink, I hold grudges and some times I even hate (yes, I know that's a strong word but it's the correct word). I have impure thoughts and I've been know to enchance a story or 2. And worst of all I don't go to church, and I'm not sure I ever will. Does this make me a bad person? (I often ask myself that.) Does it make be believe in my God anyless? I don't think so, I think it makes me...well me.
I try to tell myself I'll be a better person and in a lot of ways I am. I do community service, I help a friend whenever I can and I teach my children right from wrong and how to be true to themselves. Will I change what I do? I'm guessing after all most 38 years probably not. Most importantly I don't ever want to be anything but me. I'll worship and pray in MY way. I'll honor God and teach my children in MY way. If that makes me a "bad" Christian I guess when judgement day comes I'll have to answer to my God but for now I answer only to myself!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
The 50 pound challenge...
So the last few months have been riddled with health issues for me. It started with a kidney stone that a ER doc claimed I was making up (not sure how that works), which turned out to be a stubborn 15mm stone. During the time I was dealing with that, the karma bus decided to hit me once again and I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. So I've spent the last 3 and a half months dealing with one of these 3 issues which got me to thinking.....could I have avoided this?
The kidney stone probably not. It seems I'm prone to them and it will be a constant worry from what the doctors say. Bus seriously 15mm...that's half an inch...even the urologist said wow! 2 lithotripsies and 5 weeks of having a stent, I'm mentally scared. Yep mentally...the stent was by far one of the most unpleasant things ever...we won't talk about what happened at the grocery store...let's just say everyone was embarrassed!
Diabetes now that one could have been avoided or at least postponed. Plain and simple I haven't been taking care of myself. I've been lazy (I do love my couch) and have been eating the wrong things. My weight has sky rocketed to the point where I am heavier than I was at 9 month pregnant with my daughter. I was and am disgusted with myself! So here I am on an oral med and 2 different types of insulin....my life style has to change!!
So I've challenged myself...50 pounds in 6 months! Why 6 months? Because in about 6 months I will be testing for my first advanced belt in karate...green belt. I want to look good when I stand up there in front of my PKSA family and feel proud that I've accomplished not only improving my karate skills but improving myself at the same time!
The challenge is on......
The kidney stone probably not. It seems I'm prone to them and it will be a constant worry from what the doctors say. Bus seriously 15mm...that's half an inch...even the urologist said wow! 2 lithotripsies and 5 weeks of having a stent, I'm mentally scared. Yep mentally...the stent was by far one of the most unpleasant things ever...we won't talk about what happened at the grocery store...let's just say everyone was embarrassed!
Diabetes now that one could have been avoided or at least postponed. Plain and simple I haven't been taking care of myself. I've been lazy (I do love my couch) and have been eating the wrong things. My weight has sky rocketed to the point where I am heavier than I was at 9 month pregnant with my daughter. I was and am disgusted with myself! So here I am on an oral med and 2 different types of insulin....my life style has to change!!
So I've challenged myself...50 pounds in 6 months! Why 6 months? Because in about 6 months I will be testing for my first advanced belt in karate...green belt. I want to look good when I stand up there in front of my PKSA family and feel proud that I've accomplished not only improving my karate skills but improving myself at the same time!
The challenge is on......
Take 2...or is it 3
I've been away from blogging for a while but thought I'd give it another shot! The last few months have been challenging to say the least...more on that later. I do wonder if anyone actually reads this or if it's just me talking to myself...feel free to comment and let me know lol (I don't want to be that weird friend)!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Tis the season
Here it is December 15th...smack in the middle of the Christmas season. I've done some shopping, put up the tree and wrapped some gifts. I even say Merry Christmas to people on the street! But I'm just not feeling it!
Well maybe it's finally time to admit it....I don't like Christmas! There I said it! Yep I don't like Christmas! (Gosh that feels good!)
Christmas is a hard time for me especially since my mother passed. I know it's supposed to be a happy time, but I can't really remember to many happy Christmases in our house. I know mom worked half of them (she was a nurse) and the others I only seem to have bad memories of. Since I've gotten married and had kids of my own it's gotten better but it's still not one of my favorite days.
That being said I do my best to make my children feel that this is the most magical time of year! Christmas should really be a time of giving, family and love and I want my children to have what I didn't! I guess it can only get better right??
Well maybe it's finally time to admit it....I don't like Christmas! There I said it! Yep I don't like Christmas! (Gosh that feels good!)
Christmas is a hard time for me especially since my mother passed. I know it's supposed to be a happy time, but I can't really remember to many happy Christmases in our house. I know mom worked half of them (she was a nurse) and the others I only seem to have bad memories of. Since I've gotten married and had kids of my own it's gotten better but it's still not one of my favorite days.
That being said I do my best to make my children feel that this is the most magical time of year! Christmas should really be a time of giving, family and love and I want my children to have what I didn't! I guess it can only get better right??
A journey to a new me!
So I've been challenged to write a letter to myself describing where I want to be 10 weeks from now on my journey to a heatlhier slimmer me.....
Dear Christie,
I'm hoping that the last 10 weeks have been very sucessful! I know it's been hard but I'm hoping by now exercise and eating right have become a daily routine in life.
I hope to be down at least 15 pounds by this time and maybe a pants size or 2. Most of all I'm hoping that the exercise and healthy eating have countered some of the negative health issues going on! We gotta get that blood pressure down!
I know no matter where I am weight wise or size I have done my best and I should be proud of where I am and what I have accomplished over the last 10 weeks!
Christie
Dear Christie,
I'm hoping that the last 10 weeks have been very sucessful! I know it's been hard but I'm hoping by now exercise and eating right have become a daily routine in life.
I hope to be down at least 15 pounds by this time and maybe a pants size or 2. Most of all I'm hoping that the exercise and healthy eating have countered some of the negative health issues going on! We gotta get that blood pressure down!
I know no matter where I am weight wise or size I have done my best and I should be proud of where I am and what I have accomplished over the last 10 weeks!
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
One Size Doesn't Fit All!
So as I was driving to pick Brenda up from preschool today I was thinking that the name of the blog may need some explanation! Frist let me thank my wonderful, beautiful friend Kristin for coming up with the name! I chose this because it describes so many things we are faced with in our everyday lives.
It starts very early...even elementary school. You're consdiered different if you don't like the same things other kids like or play the same games other kids play. In middle school and high school it gets worse. Others start to notice how different some of their peers are and god forbid you are different from what the main stream feels.
What really started me thinking is the choices we make after we have children. It starts as soon as you tell someone you're expecting! Will you have a "natural" birth? Will you use pain medications? A midwife or a doctor? Breast or bottle feeding? Cloth or disposable diapers?
Oh then the blessed event happens....cosleeping? Vaccinations? Is baby sleeping on his back or on her tummy? Everyone has a thought on how YOU should raise YOUR child, and I would bet for every choice you make there is at least 10 people in your circle of friends shaking their heads at you!
I chose to breastfeed, I have friends who never even considered it. I made the diffucult choice to breastfeed both of my children until they where 3 (the taboo of that is a whole other post). I made the choice to cosleep with both of my kids. I made the choice to be a stay at home mom (again a whole other post). I am making the choice to educate my children at home.
Do you notice a theme there? I...it's my choice! What's right for my children and my family may not work for my neighbors. But that's the beauty of where we live we can choose what works for us...even if mainstream society may not agree!
One size doesn't fit all....you have to make the choices that work for you. But at the same time you also have the obligation to respect others for doing the exact same thing!! I figure at the end of the day if I can lay my head down and be at peace with what I've done and who I am, well then I picked the right size for me!
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| Dare to be you! |
It starts very early...even elementary school. You're consdiered different if you don't like the same things other kids like or play the same games other kids play. In middle school and high school it gets worse. Others start to notice how different some of their peers are and god forbid you are different from what the main stream feels.
What really started me thinking is the choices we make after we have children. It starts as soon as you tell someone you're expecting! Will you have a "natural" birth? Will you use pain medications? A midwife or a doctor? Breast or bottle feeding? Cloth or disposable diapers?
Oh then the blessed event happens....cosleeping? Vaccinations? Is baby sleeping on his back or on her tummy? Everyone has a thought on how YOU should raise YOUR child, and I would bet for every choice you make there is at least 10 people in your circle of friends shaking their heads at you!
I chose to breastfeed, I have friends who never even considered it. I made the diffucult choice to breastfeed both of my children until they where 3 (the taboo of that is a whole other post). I made the choice to cosleep with both of my kids. I made the choice to be a stay at home mom (again a whole other post). I am making the choice to educate my children at home.
Do you notice a theme there? I...it's my choice! What's right for my children and my family may not work for my neighbors. But that's the beauty of where we live we can choose what works for us...even if mainstream society may not agree!
One size doesn't fit all....you have to make the choices that work for you. But at the same time you also have the obligation to respect others for doing the exact same thing!! I figure at the end of the day if I can lay my head down and be at peace with what I've done and who I am, well then I picked the right size for me!
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